I just can't stop, I don't know how.

I should be sleeping now.
I'll be on-air in few hours time and there's classes.
I'm so cold right now and bored.
How nice if I can hug someone now.
I'm sleepy but when I lay down,
I think of you again.
I clicked and clicked,
and ya,
I saw something that affects my mood,
BIG TIME!
Baby here and there.
Should I get one myself instead?
And I thought I was the best entertainer.
Guess I'm in the best villain category too huh?
Or I'm just a forgotten star?
Oh wait, I'm a fallen hero.
Sometimes I wonder why I have to be like this?
Oh ya,
Now I remember.
There's you left inside of me and I'm still "cleaning" you out.
I have second thoughts on what I told Ch.
On the other end,
I think I'll just keep it.

[66]

Is 66.
Is not easy.
I hope 1 day I really can make it.
Day by day I realize that I have a lot of flaws that I injected in that relationship.
Whatever it is, is already done and dusted.
There are dreams that woke me up, there are moments when I miss you and the tears just came down by itself and there are even sleepless nights and ya, no doubt, there are even lonely nights.
Is no big deal.
That's what I've been telling myself.
And I'll continue with it.
Wonder when it'll end.
Is just 66 right? Is just 66......

写个你的最后一个。。。

香水，我没买，
因你已有那独特的味道
那就是我习惯的名牌香水味
你问我为什么就是爱，
怎么办？
因为爱所以爱，
可以了吗？
借口我真的很多吗？
我说不是，
就是不明白，
那就要取消资格?
别理我，
我犯贱
在你离开后的天空，
剩下只有无数的梦
在最后的战役，
我都还想留着陪你，
因为我都不明白你的黑色幽默
你给我的kiss goodbye，
都回不来了
祝你生日快乐，
亲口说了就没话说了吗？
手机那天，
都不想休息
快乐的不是我给的，
快乐是你自己取的对吧？
不觉得爱错，
谢谢你
我有过那唯一的感觉
有痛，有泪，
你我都受过
你会比从前快乐是吗？
是我想太多
爱了你太多
我只会说
是否都没把那如果做到
被伤透的心都不能继续爱我
命里有时，终会有，
命里无时，莫强求
最后的疼爱是手放开
I wanna heal and feel again.

Dreams

Once again, you appeared in my dream.
Is this a sign of something?
What I remember is we are in the beach and you lay down on my lap and we were talking about something and laughing.
Well, is only a dream.
日有所思，夜有所梦已不是第一次了。

杨健溢

很久没有大声笑了
只有大声哭
杨健溢，回来吧
是时候清醒了啦！

没有如果

觉得有如果，可是没有如果，
这种感觉很累人。
如果你说没有如果，
就真的没有如果。
那我真的该休息了，
这如果，我不想了。
因为，我们没了如果。
再见了。。。。

You want the rich so that the wants will always be reachable.
You want the good looking so that you are proud enough to show or should I say the eyes love beautiful things?
You want the smart so you don't have to worry about stupid.
You want the good body figure so that the lust can be fulfilled or there's guarantees in health?
Oh wait, once again, the eyes love beautiful things.
You want the loving so that hurtful won't ever come.
You want the loyal so that the scary betrayal won't ever appear.
You want the caring so that you won't be lonely.
You want this, you want that.
There's no stopping.
There's nothing wrong with it cause I know is just human's nature.
More, more and more is what we want day by day.
Wants can be change, but needs,
it'll stay until it dies.
Let's just ask what we deserve cause,
we are all pathetic realistic bastards.

It gave me a BIG scare!

Came back from Uni and as usual I turn on my laptop to online before I take a bath. But then, it fucking scared me by hanging after I logged in. So, I restart it but then the same thing happened, oh wait, is even worst this time! The background changed to the original background when you first bought the laptop and everything is G-O-N-E! I'm okay with other stuffs which is gone but not the pictures cause it contains tonnes of memory in it! Fuck! I'm so fucking tired after a whole day of classes and an hour half meeting and it gave me this bull shit! Luckily I get back everything after 2 attempts of restoration and copy the pictures to my external hard disk. If not, I think I'm gonna burst into tears due to another devastating moment. I really don't want any upsetting moment in this few months cause I had enough of damage already. To alex's lappie : PLEASE DONT MOTHA FUCKER GIVE ME THE SAME PROBLEM AGAIN!! CB!!!!

爱情线上

一段爱情，谁是谁非，
谁有谁无，谁给谁拿，
再怎么绕，都是属于你我之间。
在爱情线上，伤了，
就会留下疤痕吗？
就不能拿快乐的时光当药敷吗？
还是伤了就难已回头？
之间的信任，空间，
往往都遇上小考。
过了就算，过不到就得再考。
太多的失望，是因为不了解，
还是误会？还是空头的承诺？
承诺做到是良药，毁了就是毒药？
真的要那么计较？
爱情线上，
开心是必要，伤心是不要，
失望有时是难免，感觉还是最重要。
难得找到，就好好去爱。
牵了就不要轻易地说放手，说了，一定有刺。